I often wonder if one realizes WHAT they have …until it is GONE…

July 4, 2010

I think my Mum’s death ….brought it home to me…as we were able to share a LOT of Life before, … as she said “checked out”……and this was many years after my father died…whom I loved but never felt close to…..

but when Mom did pass on into the firmament….it was SUCH a loss for me…..the only other loss had been when my friend Jimbo was murdered……

I use to take life for granted…that things would never change….that everything would remain the same….but since Mom’s death…I TRULY VALUE what I have been given…the friendships I have…the beautiful people I have been fortunate to know……

I just came back from a restaurant that back in 1969 my Uncle took me to…The Golden Bull a stone’s throw away from the beach of Santa Monica ……..with two of his..and my best and oldest friends….who look like they are in their 50 but are in their 80’s….where oh where does time go……Doris and Jimmy……

I cannot TELL you or how to EXPRESS how much I LOVE them……they are like a sister or a brother for me….

when my last lover beat me up physically .years ago …over 12 …they welcomed me into their house at the wee hours of the morn….well it was so touching for this gay guy……

our friendship and love for each other is as solid as the Rock of Gibraltar…….I have NEVER loved a lover like I do them…it is something that lies way beyond physical attraction …tho Miss Doris is a stunning Beauty……..and Mr Jim is not hard at all on the eyes…..

it is emotion…shared time…and at the end of the day LOVING YOURSELF …so you don’t give an F what others say …and have the ability to truly LOVE another….. and GIVE your wonderful ENERGY to THEIR Life…….

The wedding of my nephew Sean and Heather last week totally blew me away…how the community on Bainbridge Island – Seattle – and across the country not only love them but also my brother Rick and his wonderful wife Susi……

so REALIZE how WONDERFUL you are…don’t be SHY…get out and GIVE …before it is too late …and they are gone……

One Response to “I often wonder if one realizes WHAT they have …until it is GONE…”

  1. CarmenitaNunley said

    Hear! Hear! Loving yourself enough to allow another to see the true authentic you. We waste so time on the day to day, trying to survive, that some how we forget how to “be” to “feel” to “love” and to just go with. Who knows what direction life will lead us, opening to the possibilities and surrendering to just “being” no matter what……LVU

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