I thought when I was at Carleton College …back in the late 60’s…that as time changed MORE people around the world would become “EDUCATED”….and that Women, Black People, Jews, Homosexuals……(I had no concept of Islam back then..nor of homosexuals)…….would be accepted as “normal”…… straight – White Christian Men were…..

I just am SHOCKED that as life has progressed beyond that period of the Ignorance of the Vietnam War …nothing has changed…… if anything…due to electronic INSTANT communication…in some respects I think it has become worse…

as you can stir up those fears…so fast now…and it seems people like to wallow in their fears…rather than venturing forth and educating themselves…..

it basically comes down to people that are unhappy with their life…basically with themselves….that causes them to use the nearest dish towel to blame their frustration and unhappiness on…..rather than looking in the mirror….

and sitting in silence ..and reflecting on LIFE .. and WHAT they HAVE been given……………

I just came back from one of my fave’s the “Village Idiot”…and got into a discussion with two of my favorite waitresses -(yeah PC incorrect)….. Leah from Australia and Susannah from Michigan…..it was quite fascinating – their views – Leah just came back from holiday down under…where there is a VERY close election going on today…which is interesting as Australia is one of the only countries that has escaped the recession that the EU and the US and China and India have been exposed to….

Susannah is I think a bit more in-tune …but really at the end of the day you just have to experience her non stop smile…as you sigh and think…well I have come “home”…..

they both ARE such wonderful individuals!!!

When I went to St Albans….(back in the “Mad Men” days…when wives were supposed to be TOTALLY devoted to their husband and raising their family…and not think about themselves….)…when I subscribed secretly to “Charles Atlas” mag…as I was skinny and puny…only weighed like 80 lbs when I entered that school back in the Fourth Grade…….so was not allowed to play on the football team..

felt I had totally disappointed my father..who was such a jock…

..had to be put with the other nerds in a group called “Troop 19”..which all of the jocks laughed at…as we played soccer while they played FOOTBALL……

needless to say I had no idea of what homosexuals were…except Mom took a dislike to the Fuller Brush man…who looking back was quite nelly (sp?)……

My fourth grade class at St Albans – consisted of like 52 boys – it was an all boys school – 4th grade through 12th…..it is now coed….there were two Jews..who came from VERY wealthy families….Leo Leva (sp?) who was soft spoken, had VERY sensitive eyes and EXTREMELY bright……..

.I learned later …many years….that he had committed suicide..I think he might have been gay..

..and Roger – I forget his last name – he is still alive I think – but not from as wealthy a family as Leo’s….he is a character and travelled with my best friend a nerd also and I – to Europe for 2 months after we graduated from St Albans …travelling on the book..back in 1964 entitled “Europe On 5 Dollars A Day”…..the only problem was that EVERY where we went …were Americans who also had read the book…’

we tossed the book into the bin after a few weeks…..but did not tell our parents…

F Scott Fitzgerald’s grandson …Timbo Lanahan went to St Albans…he use to pick up ants in front of the chapel and eat them….he had the BESTEST of birthday parties in Georgetown – their house had secret doors and passages….his father smoked a pipe…his mum was quite “Bohemian”….being the only child of Scott and Zelda….his sister Eleanor..(can’t remember her nickname) …who was in my dancing class…use to enter Miss Shippens dancing school dressed formally…make an exit out the back door …to where a Hells Angel biker waited for her..she would take her dress off, don bike cloters and zoom off …not to return until dancing school ended..to get redressed in her gown and go out and meet one of her parents or the chauffeur

the first Black man to enter St Albans was like in 1957…his name was Frank Snowden…a VERY serious – BRILLIANT man…..he TOTALLY was refreshing to me…as the jocks could not put him down as he was a great footballer….he was quiet… and respectful….I wish at the time he had been more of a nerd so I could have gotten to know him better…I believe he went on to Harvard then to Oxford – and I think is now is still teaching at Yale – has written many a book – Italy seems to be his focus…he won MANY award for his book “The Conquest of Malaria: Italy 1900-1922″….

my jock of a father had one of those birthday parties I hate…well I hated them all…where he got all of my classmates…to do something TOTALLY Athletic…

we assembled at Battery Kimble Park in DC…but father had us ALL doing runs – sprints..dashes – EVERYTHING I HATE….and also throwing javelins …the only thing I remember from that Bday party….as I was soo sensitive to Frank being among all these white boys ….was that Frank threw the javelin like twice as far as the white boys….which my father’s jaw dropped at……

you know I rent out my spare room so I can go down and see wonderful Susannah and Leah…well like a bit more than a year ago…there was this man..who just has an “AURA”…like my current roomate does…turns out he was teaching at UCLA…had a PHD from Stanford…where he is back at now ….

as time went out I found out he had written 3 books – introducing rap – into layman’s understanding – I also found out he was Muslim – was black (yeah one would think it would be obvious to me…but unless you are JET BLACK…my favorite color – it does not enter my mind)….also that he is gay….

Man if Sarah Palin were the head of this country…he would be shot dead like the animals she loves to shoot from a helicopter on the Alaskan tundra…..

all I can say he is one of the kindest, most intelligent, soft spoken men I have ever met……you just want to curl up at his feet and let him talk about food..about life…..he is just BRILLIANT….and through knowing him… he really introduced me to rap and Islam (we never talked about it but I began to read more..to understand why he was so wonderful)…. – a beautiful – caring faith…as is Judaism and Christianity…though I am metaphysical….a combination of everything that exists

so my point of this epistle is NOT to listen to the electronic chatter…go into a “forest” …a “field” … a quiet space….and listen to your heart….

connect with the Powers that have created you….love yourself and just KNOW!!!!!

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