YOU will NEVER realize Ever HOW wonderful YOU truly are!!!!

April 16, 2011

All of YOU

.

ARE Unique Artists….You GIVE so much .. you WILL   NEVER realize …YOUR TRUE worth….
EVER……EVER…
it is only if a stranger smiles at you for the kindness you  showed them…….that you get a sense of your worth…
I realized this today….(and I have never been able to  accept a compliment…as I ALWAYS have felt I could/should  have done more…)
I watched a taped show of Oprah…actually two shows..one with Shirley Mclaine (sp?)…which was quite wonderful….
and then  a very upsetting story about this guy who as a child was locked in a closet by his father and stepmother at the age of 6…… for months and months and months ….he was in a cage in this closet  and was not given any food…and if he screamed his stepmother poured dish detergent into his mouth….he sat in his piss and shit….and his father pissed on him…and his stepmother wiped his face with his shit…but this 6 year old  child ……. felt it was ALL  HIS fault….
well Oprah this week had him on TV…he is 16 now….has  a Justin Bieber (sp?) haircut…
…his biological mother who was a druggie  disappeared…well her sister..his aunt eventually has  raised him …and she  TOTALLY was SHOCKED when she found out what her sister had done……and is VERY protective of him….
his father served less than 2 years in prison …was let out early due to his fulfilling his GDs…(?whatever it is when one fulfills school requirements)
his stepmother served less time..
he says that smells….and the oldies music that his father and stepmother played to drown out his screaming when he was locked in the closet…
it brings back that  horrific time …..
he is a VERY upbeat kid…smiles alot…is trying to move beyond his past……
and  I felt SO STRONGLY  as I watched the show………….that I would  have shot  his father….. I mean to have done this to his own  child.. ….his own son….who will NEVER be able to forget his imprisoned lost childhood…maybe I am wrong…it is …well I cannot forgive ANYONE that does that to their own child
and then I saw today at the Landmark Theatre…a documentary about Bill Cunningham (sp?) …an 80 year old guy whose love is photoing woman’s ..well also outrageous men…their fashion ….he lived at Carnegie Hall….and was evicted with a few other artist  ..after living there for sooo many years under rent control..which actually he did not give a rat’s ass about …
but Bill who ONLY rides a bike back and forth in Manhattan…reminds me of my dear friend Catherine….as he is TOTALLY committed to his ART..his  love…photoing …centered ALWAYS on his passion…..he NEVER has had a relationship….as his love has always been basically the photoing unusual expressions of LIFE expressed basically by woman and a few men…..
he is not interested at all in celebrities and their free clothes given to them by designers….but has photoed all of the TOP fashionistas…from Brooke Astor to gay guys in drag before they were accepted
he basically photos people WHO  EXPRESS  the energy of LIFE….. themselves….and he is SOOO Happy doing this…
My point of this epistle….is You WILL NEVER KNOW you  HAVE  IT …but believe me you DO!!
So stop beating yourself up ..Love yourself ……………and just continue to GIVE!!!!
I THANK YOU for helping me on this Wonderful Journey in  My Life…………….
Just KNOW I love YOU!!…as you HAVE IT…..always HAVE!!!!!
xxRob

2 Responses to “YOU will NEVER realize Ever HOW wonderful YOU truly are!!!!”

  1. Sumner said

    Rob, saw the same Oprah show and was balling like a baby! Love, Sums

  2. daidie said

    Rob – this is so very moving and beautifully written and inspirational! You have such a unique spirit – such appreciation of life and of all that is deeply good. You are a blessing to us all and remind each of us of what’s important. Thank you love xx Daidie

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