I had a wonderfully frustrating  dream last night set in Victorian England…and I was correcting this actress Katy…( a wonderful  girl with whom I worked several years ago before she moved to Chicago)…about how she was getting the part wrong…..I mean the costumes were FABULOUS….as were the settings…but SHE could just NOT get IT…and then the dream came crashing to an end when I was awakened by the garbage truck outside…..

and then went downstairs where my rooomate had purchased so much fresh fruit that my few items in the fridge….were liked squashed to the back….and  the smells emanating from his bedroom seemed especially funky….but then I have a bad nose….but he works for a “medicinal herbal  collective”…(meaning a legal pot place)
took  my car to the drive through car  wash…where the price is normally 5 dollars….and the girl said…no 6….I said I thought it was 5…she said no not on weekend….only 5 …weekday before 11:30 AM…..5….which I did not realize…after 2 years…. I guess I usually take my auto in on one of my off Fridays…..
went to LACMA…one of THE  museums……here in LA…..to see the new Tim Burton exhibit…that dear Michael invited me to…a show that actually opens to the public tomorrow….I totally admire Tim’s artistry…but his subject matter always seems like a bit of a downer…….and I frankly hate crowds…it reminded me of when I went to Mario Testino’s (sp?) photo show of Princess Diana in London….at The National Portrait Gallery …which I love..but it was so suffocatingly crowded that you could really not enjoy the show…..as you could not get close to anything…
then I went to see the VERY HIGHLY rated movie “Tree Of Life”….by Terrence Malik…which won the Palm d’Or (sp?) just recently in Cannes…well I if I am NOT swept away  in the beginning of a movie…I just get up and leave…..
which I did after 45 minutes of this grueling  movie…which to me was like watching The History Channel….about the creation of us …of LIFE…I mean.all these underwater scenes…these very beautiful visual scenes of volcanoes and cloud formations and noisy dinosaurs..with this baroque church and operatic  music  ..
well F-it GET to the point…..if I had smoked…I am sure I would have TOTALLY loved it….but did later read a review if you get through the beginning of it …it is TOTALLY worth it…..
then I came home..cleaned my fountain…
and am trying to change all my bulbs to the low (that take forever to light up)  energy fluorescent (mercury ..shudder)…ones….and the one I put over the kitchen sink is like WAY TOO bright.after it FINALLY lites up….it is 23 watt but is like the old 120 watts..
..a project for tomorrow along with the f-ing dripping washerlesss  shower cold and hot stems….and why in the F did they STOP making a stem where you could change the actual 5 cent washer, rather  then replacing  the WHOLE stem ….which cost like $65.00 a piece if they are still made…..
and I sat down for a sec……as I noticed an article about Oprah..in todays NY Times..
 I REALLY had not started to watch her until like two years ago.(which I would tape..well DVR)..but this article  just caught my eye..as it is titled “The Church of Oprah Winfrey and a Theology of Suffering” by Mark Oppenheimer….where he goes onto say that Oprah teaches that suffering is a desirable experience……”in her earnest spiritual seeking, Ms. Winfrey gave platforms to some rather questionable types…”
well I just wonder if Mark Oppenheimer EVER has suffered….and by this …I feel,  as I think  Oprah does, that from pain we learn…WE are NOT into pain….whether you are fat – ugly, gay  or not a “jock’ as I was…….there comes pain……from being rejected by your peers…..and it becomes a learning experience…..as  were all of my fathers 500 mile  canoe trips across Northern Canada…where we were flown in and left by chartered plane and left for 30 days ..after  which the Canadian Mounties would come looking for us …
 I look back NOW and marvel at my father….for the balls he had…going totally against what all of his friends thought was kind of mad….I mean one canoe with two of your under age children in it….in the middle of nowhere….above the Arctic Circle…..
that  trip one could only take 6 weeks out  of the year ..as the lakes would be frozen up if you did not do it then…and yes we ran into ice floes…and had to wear wet suits which are a bitch to wear all day..(try to take a dump ..dropping your suit…mosquitoes eating your ass)…and it was above the tree line ..so really only scrub brush and herds of migrating caribou…..
yes my father knew pain…from an early age …his parents were burned to death….. in  the chauffeur driven car that their friends the  Fields hired….. it  hit a gas truck that had to screeched  to a halt  due to a down power line…on a rainy Monday.
this is down  in Florida…..where my grands use to winter from the snows of Minnesota…..
My Grandfather lost his Bank and  EVERYTHING he had back during the “CRASH” of 1929 …but  Mr Field came out and  backed him financially ….after the crash ….as he BELIEVED in him ..
Granddad was still alive when .my father went down…joined and WON a Paddle (table) Tennis Tournament …. as his father was dying in the hospital….I mean WHY stay bedside with your father…I TOTALLY understand it ..as men back then were not what they are today…….nor expected to be….
so I guess my point is that I have known a lot of suffering before I was 14…as had my Dad…someone  I did  NOT  relate to back then….
so Mark Oppenheimer you are entitled to your views…I just feel sorry you have had such an entitled life that you have NEVER suffered…as I, countless others,  and Oprah have…
 I TOTALLY LOVE Oprah for what she has done for EVERYONE…..and continues to do…..
To end the day…of being pissed off…I went up to my fave Thai restaurant…
(my monk won’t be back from Thailand  for a couple of weeks )……. I learned from the  gorgeous owner that one of the ‘servers” spent a week in a monastery here in LA…which makes me so curious…..I mean I just love it..the Oprah like knowing path  that some people have …..that they follow….
… I  was seated across from a guy I know from work who was with his girl…..don’t get me wrong this guy is nice…well I should only  say …he is NOT quite THERE yet…..and by that I mean he is a young soul…..has just started his journey…..
Oprah would KNOW what I mean …..(sigh!!!)
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