YOU GOTTA FAT FAGGOT FACE!!!

May 14, 2011

so Henry Murray told me as he with his GIANT overweight body …picked me up….n threw my puny eighth  grade  body   into a trash can and pushed it…to roll  down 2 flights of stairs at St Albans….school I attended unhappily from 4th to 12th…. it WAS and still IS THE  school for diplomats and congressmen n anyone who can get in ….to send their kids to in DC…..Al Gore was in the class behind me..and classes were only like 55 guys (it was not coed then)…Jesse Jackson sent his boys there..etc etc

what made me think of this today was …how people look at us .. our faces…our bodies …and JUST assume something …that IS NOT TRUE…..they just presume due to their preconditioned fat ignorance  – usually set in childhood – that they HAVE to be RIGHT…..
sorry …NOT TRUE!!!!
I just went up the street to one of my fave’s Evan Kleiman’s Angeli Cafe on Melrose  for dinner – read this EXCELLENT, EXCELLENT  article in The New York mag by Wesley Yang titled: “Paper Tigers”…..in which he deals with stereotypes and Amy Chua’s best seller “Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother”….in which she talks of the Chinese way she raises her kids to be the BEST and the TOP…..I have not read this book….just have listened to the hoopla that was created by basically appalled white people and then others …of her ideas of CONTROLLING a child’s life in the more traditional Chinese way……of the importance of SUCCESS and honoring the family …..to basically the loss of socializing…..with your peers at a young age, who might not be right for you, but do make you more aware of Life….}Wesley Yang’s wonderful article (and do go online to read it..http://nymag.com/news/features/asian-americans-2011-5/. )….deals with the way basically us whites deal with people with Asian looking faces….n what we do not realize is how some of these wonderful people are conditioned by their parents.who are following centuries of Tradition……NOT to show emotion…..to retain everything ..to work to be the TOP of their field…..
Wesley talks of the founder of Zappos.com the online shoe retailer….who I thought for some reason was Latin…well he is “a short Asian man who speaks tersely and devoid of obvious charisma …” named Tony Hsieh ….. and Wesley goes on that Tony “…credits the experiences he had running a pizza business at Harvard as more important than anything he learned in class……he knew that nothing his parents were teaching him would get him THERE (my caps).”
and getting back to today…I was working a city event …of recycling e waste and shredding. which we do twice a year .. I have assisted   now 3 times…. I TOTALLY love it!!…as the public are so so HAPPY to get rid of their old papers and old electronic waste …..West Hollywood has some FINE looking people – some eccentrics too….some bring their old TV’s by bus …some in their Bentley’s…..
I was at the entrance with my friend who actually is my boss …Michelle….who always makes EVERYTHING hilarious….I know  honestly if I had been a Jew on the way to a concentration death  camp with Michelle we would have laughed all the way …that is just her inherent nature…and yes she has people jealous of her  or should I say …just people Yet….  to LEARN  …uninformed people…OK IGNORANT ASSES …..who would say after she makes wine out of  water ..that she MUST be an alcoholic…n yes that was what was said  about Obama’s coup this week…..she is like a Greek character… fated  to ALWAYS tell the TRUTH….she has NO control of it…it just falls out of her beautiful mouth before she has a chance to think about WHAT she is about to say……
.anyway…I noticed across the street this guy with a note pad who seemed hesitant to approach us…he finally ambled over…Michelle recognized him …he is a reporter or I should say writer for one of the WEHO e- blogs …”The Patch”…….anyway Michelle  ( with her knock out smile)….said something charming to him about where she saw him last …
..then he turned to me …who had not let a peep out …and asked WHO was in charge of this event….well…I was like kinda shocked….WHY did he ask silent me…as he knew Michelle…my first thought was because I was white….then I thought because I was a male…..then maybe because I am a tad taller than Michelle…..but later he said how he was from the South….so my mind settled frankly on all 3  of the ideas I had……I said to him Michelle IS in charge….so he turned back to her and interviewed her…(I thought WHEW…means I don’t have to bring bagels to work…which is the rule if any of us appears in the press (written or e…)…………………
I have been after  Michelle for quite awhile to write HER book of how Black people raise their kids…..which is basically you talk to them the way you honestly feel at the moment…none of this superwhite overglossing things because they are too young…and you give them a good SMACK  when they definitely need it….and you don’t treat them like they already are an adult…and by this I mean all these GROSS kiddee  talent shows…where they, at 7 are made up … bosomed up …n  NOW this week botoxed up, to act like they are 21…..and by the way HAVE you EVER seen a BLACK child in this kinda farce….NO!!!!!!
read Michelle’s book…
I was brought up now I realize – privileged – WHITE – we did not have a black in St Albans until in my 8th grade…(he went on to become President of Howard University )…..
my mother had 5 children – a husband who traveled a lot  as he worked for the White House , the State Department ….then the CIA…..but we  had a Norwegian girl  combination nanny and  cook….whom we all loved
, and a wonderful laundress  whom  I JUST ADORED….one eyed  Miss Alice…I use to race home from St Albans to go downstairs to the basement just to see her…she was the first black person I knew…but I was not conscious of color  …until later..when I was in the car with the Peruvian Consul General   …driving back from our weekend house in Blue Ridge Summit Pennsylvania .to DC .. when he said “All Negro’s smelled”…I was in the back of his car…and there were apples he had just purchased as it was Fall…so I thought  all Black people must  smell of apples …(Carlos ..later  went nuts and I think was eventually locked up …anyway Karma hit him as it should…)…..
Miss Alice  had her ex….Mr Terri picked her up everyday in his wonderfully expensive looking shiny  black sedan…..and I am sure she hated me for  asking TOO MANY Questions ….like  WHY she and Mr Terry were not still married…and WHY did they not have any kids……..man she was the FIRST  Woman I truly loved….(after my mom)
my mother whom I Loved more than my Dad (not his fault – just the way men were back then)…well she would scold us verbally …and then after like an hour rush up and apologize….as she …an only child who did not have any love from her American born  German father (nother whole story)…well I realize now that was a big mistake for her to do ..but do understand why she did it…as she wanted to be loved as….alas women back then did not have much love from their fathers or husbands…as they were just “wives”
but as I have written before….when Miss Alice passed….well Mom who never drove more than to the market ….due to the fact it was a man’s job to drive long distance so Father ALWAYS did it ….unless he was not available ….and with his mistress…”work”….and Mom had to drive us to our summer home across the country to Lake Namekagon near Cable Wisconsin….(yes privileged …I realize now…..)
but I was told that when Miss Alice passed Mom (alone)  got into our  unairconditioned station wagon (Dad never paid for “extras” in cars…which back then were   AC, a rear view side mirror, and  radio)……and motored for hours to this small simple wood structured church in the wheat fields of Virginia….
she said it was the MOST MOVING experience that she had ever had…she was the ONLY white person there….
and the Reverend said that Miss Jane from “Our Capitol Washington DC is here to say goodbye to Our Miss Alice Boyd…”….
.Mom said they handed her a fan as she entered…as it was beastly humid….
the singing …. of the young boys and girls….the dust that flowed up from the wooden boards of the church..as people jumped up n down…..
..the LOVE and EMOTION they showed just crippled her with emotion that she had never experienced…..
I KNOW the BLACK way of raising a child..at least Michelle’s way is the way to go….I mean honesty…and if you are tired of the fuckers tell them….they gotta learn sometime…and if it is NOT from their mother …then who should it be from….the misguided ghosts in the net ???  sorry think not…..
so my basic point is ……
 FIND your inner child..THE center of your life which allows you to look BEYOND the PHYSICAL ….
there might be confusion.with your visual …..but at the end of the day there is a BEAUTIFUL soul just waiting to be appreciated  for your  EXPRESSION of LIFE… …..
as Madonna, Lady G, and  Quentin Crisp eventually   found out …………
as YOU GOT what NO ONE ELSE CAN EVER HAVE…………..!!!!

3 Responses to “YOU GOTTA FAT FAGGOT FACE!!!”

  1. daidie said

    Roby this is a really interesting and IMPORTANT piece. really like it! Good for you! xx d

  2. ricci said

    Robby,

    A marvelous piece! Stirring and relevant in so many ways. Last evening, I thought of you and the rest of the “kids”. We were out at a local jazz venue here on the island seeing the wonderful jazz singer Greta Mattaso. At one point towards the end of her first set, she said “Now is the time in my show where I open it up to requests from the audience.” I raised my hand. She called upon me and I said from the back of the room: “All the Things You Are”. She immediately smiled and said that is one of her favorite songs and by Jerome Kern. She sang it in a spirited, joyful way with such feeling that I could feel Mom slowly twirling, her long ivory-colored tassels swirling in an ecstatic dance. Her presence ever-present in that long moment. xxxoooR

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