9/11 Where I was….

September 8, 2011

well I get to work at 5 (AM)…and was heavily into paper work…when I heard the clomp…clomp  of HER boots…(there is something NOT sexy about the sound of clomping boots…unless it is in a pasture…where THEY cannot clomp……and  unless she is your FIRST LOVE..)

she said “Rob..ROB!!!…the Twin Towers have been hit….”

I immediately thought of the towers in Century City…..

she sorta always bothered me..tho she is a good soul …I guess. ….

she had at one time said her main happiness in LIFE was (or is it were)… DIAMONDS….

and always had Tiffany catalogues on her desk….she “fell” in love with a jeweler who (or is it whom)…was an illegal Latvian I think …..whom she introduced to Daddy……

and Daddy  paid for their wedding (whereby her husband became LEGAL)..

on the shores of Dochweiller’s (sp?)  Beach…or maybe it WAS Malibu…..anyway she had WONDERFUL pictures of them..as the sun set ..with her shoulder length stragglie hair blowing in the wind…..that she “shared” with us work place people….Daddy was wearing a Naval Officer’s outfit…white hat etc…but it did not quite fit…which made me think it had been hired as ..well he had QUITE a muffin top that spilled out over his pants … burst through his Naval “officers jacket”…reminded me of something from Dickens…………….

so clomp – clomp later…we go into the office of the BIG boss at City Hall and turn on the TV …only to witness the second plane hitting the second twin tower….at 6:05 …our time….

well I REALLY felt it was a joke …an Orson Welles joke…the way he did “The War of the Worlds”…in 1938….which terrified a lot of people….

I was just stunned and NOT able to accept it……as REAL….

well clomp clomp left me to my thoughts…..

which due to CNN…made me think of the day JFK was shot…which  I could NOT  believe  back then….(November 22, 1963).

as I was in my Junior year at St Albans School…in DC ..a private  boys  school (that ALL THE senators, ambassador’s  sons went to.)… (I was imprisoned in  from 4th grade to 12th…)

we were eating lunch in the “Refectory” and one of the “masters” came in and said that JFK was shot and we all had to proceed to the Chapel….and then were let go ..to get home….

I HATED the school as I was one of 5o some boys in that grade that basically spent every day together for all those years…and I was bullied and disliked due to being basically a puny kid…as I was not allowed to join the football team….back in 4th Grade…due to the fact that I did NOT weigh enough….and this was a BIG disappointment to me as my Dad was such a jock…a “War Hero”…working for the White House…or maybe it was the CIA back then…

…Eddie Stowe with his goon squad … use to kick me in the balls every day at recess…and then Henry Murphy tossed me into a trash can and pushed it down this long flight of stairs…..

I had grown up so Happy…I just NEVER knew people could be so cruel…for no reason….it made no sense….except maybe they were jealous of something I DID not realize….or I guess more realistically ….they just COULD not comprehend me….

as the same sort of thing happened to me at The Bones Brothers Ranch in Montana..that one summer…in 1964 ….

.where these guys entered the cabin that Peter and I shared…..placed a cut open feather pillow over my  mouth so I could not scream…..and dragged me out into  the wet wheat  fields …where they proceeded to strip me nude …in front of their girl friends ……whom all laughed …except for one…who returned my pajamas…(yes back then we DID wear pajamas)….

and that was due to the fact that I did not swear ….. I was “too nice”…..

when I look TODAY at the skies and see a plane slowly proceeding against our brilliant blue sky…it brings back  EVERY TIME…

clomp ..clomp…diamonds….frizzy shoulder length hair….a  vagina length leather skirt…

9/11 will be forever Embedded in my mind…and NOT for clomp clomp…

 

but for THOSE of you who mattered and matter  so MUCH to ME….

 

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