Death and Taxes

August 4, 2012

my first exposure to Death…was in La Jolla, California ……in the early 70’s

my maternal grandmother….

 

(my paternal  grands were burnt to death in an auto accident in Florida  when an electric line was downed due to a storm ……the  gasoline truck ahead of them screeched to a halt and the chauffeur driven car of their friends ..the Fields ..that my grands were in …..slammed into it…creating this ball of fire…..)

and this was when my Dad was only a sophomore in college..so I only know them through stories and old sepia photos

 

she was a Christian Scientist…so never had a doctor…but after her husband had a stroke and was in the next bedroom she asked of her Christian Science nurses…WHY could she NOT have a doctor…..to relieve her pain…..

my grandfather told me …”she chose Christian Science…all her life…why is she doubtful NOW…NO  she can NOT have a doctor….”

the night she died the Christian Science nurses woke me up ( I was staying in a motel nearby)…  to verify that she was dead …which made NO sense to me…

once I arrived and went in and saw my Grand..

(the full moon pouring in from the window overlooking the ocean crashing on the rocks below her room)

her skeleton..(she had lost sooo much weight)….I hesitated in kissing her…as ..well it was NOT!!!…MY GRAND!!!……but I did….kiss “her” cold forehead …..I just could NOT kiss her lips…which I have regretted ever since……

then I went in to tell my grandfather his wife of so sooo many years was dead….he merely said “Thank God”…rolled over and went back to sleep…….

which frankly NOW ..at my age…I totally understand….

but I was SHOCKED at his response…and MORE  offended and SHOCKED  by the County Coroner

who’s men came in and tossed my dear grandmother into a bag…and one of them carried her over his shoulder as they exited her house….

it was as if they were merely picking up a bag of trash ..

rather than the woman who  had cooked me wonderful fried chicken… and her apple pies I always looked forward to…even tho she had bought them at the Crocus Hill Bakery…(never will forget those smiling floured faced ladies)

..gave me money when I was short of money at college ..which meant her husband …my grand…got a cheaper cut of meat

…..I still do NOT understand their indifference or disrespect for someone who….just died ….

 

(sigh)

the reason these thoughts have percolated up

an aside: (WOW…my grand had one of those old coffee “percolators” with the glass dome at the top…where you knew WHEN the coffee hit the dome…that it was READY)…..

is that my Best friend is losing one of her best friends to cancer…

so we went to a new mixologist/bar/restaurant…that has only been open a week in a hotel in downtown LA…near LA Live…which we actually do ..probably monthly…..

Diane’s upcoming Death has hit us differently…..

I have never Known  Diane physically but Michelle’s talking always about her …I feel…I always HAVE Known her ….

my BEST and closest friend Jimbo…was murdered in our  apartment 14 years ago … this recent August the first….and there is NOT a week that goes by that I do NOT think about him….he was one of the kindest souls that ever graced this earth…was loved by everyone at City Hall…well everyone that came into contact with him…he was just a giver….(sigh!!)

(he like Michelle REALLY never has  had ANY idea what they have given in their lives….as to GIVE  is their natural essence of Being)

and the reason I mention “taxes” is due to Harry Reid (sp?) announcing in the Senate  that Mitt R ..from what Harry had heard…had NOT paid any taxes for 10 years and that is WHY Romney is NOT disclosing taxes beyond the last two years…

my Uncle Sumner NEVER paid Income Tax in his life…which always made me as a child …speechless with my mouth open in shock and awe as my Dad ALWAYS paid and paid…..

Dad had to raise 5 children and promised to put us all through college (which he did)…and graduate school if we wanted to…

my Uncle had no children…lived what my father considered a sort of wild, Bohemian Life…being Gay….

my point of this note is….I TOTALLY accept Death…it is up to us to care for those left who do not understand it..and as far as taxes….well does one expect to get everything our Government does for FREE?????

if you do Karma will come and get y0u…but then again  it never did  my uncle ….maybe because he gave everyone (like Jimbo did) ..so much laughter and happiness…..

(sigh)

Love yourself first…

then CARE Deeply for  those you TRULY LOVE……. and NOT those Society or Life has EXPECTED  you to..

as then you will be ABLE to weep and laugh ….

YOU WILL  pay the taxes you are due to pay….

whether it is in laughter and Giving…or…. ….

 

well ONLY YOU can honestly answer the Question…….. if YOU have Given  Life it’s  Just Due…..

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